I think i had a pretty good weekend in my home town, very relaxing!
I went there to do the "last thing" I could do for my grandmother to end the dark period. somehow, i consider it's just sort of conforting ourselves, those who are still alive. If we did treat her well when she was still alive, we will have nothing to worry about, nothing to be regret, nothing to be afraid of. I didn't expect I would voice it out so loud in front of some people. Anyway, simply ask your heart: "  how well did you treat her?"
Chinese people believe in ghosts. They are afraid of seeing her I suppose. But I wondered. Why?!!! Hopefully they wouldn't find me insane when i said i wanted to see her. Do you think she would hurt me, the child she had brought up with love and care??
Anyway, cherish the one right next to you.
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Everytime is like this in a family gathering:
"when are you going to get marry? you are old enough."
I used to say that i hadn't yet met the right one. But this time, i said: " i don't want to get marry." Including my other cousin sisters, 3 girls mentioned about not getting marry so early. our relatives were scared to death hahaha... marriage?! whose concern?! Can you really accept the one i choose? Honestly, you guys expect too much on my life partner.
My conclusion for that topic:" do you think you can stop me?"

The first time ever i have been so harsh to them, the closest group of people in my life. I don't know. But sometimes, they got to know something-- individual choice & thinking.